I went to a women’s shelter to go over safety planning with a social worker to leave my ex last week. That was a hard step to take. Wish me luck.

sucked off a whole boat of cocks one time

1. Was strong enough to overcome the harsh realities of dealing with heartbreak and depression. It took a lot of nights crying myself to sleep, days fighting with my suicidal thoughts, and my “inner demons” bashing negative comments to myself to finally have a calmer mind.

2. Got my driver’s license after after having a panic attack. I passed on the 3rd try, but I had a panic attack on my 1st in public at the DMV and had a total meltdown in front of strangers on the 2nd try because I failed. I was learning how to drive while being heartbroken after being dumped by my ex. So, I was extremely disappointed in myself that I failed the behind the wheel test because I really did give it my all, my best effort to learn while being depressed as shit, but received a failing grade in the end.

3. Learned from my failures. And is now a much wiser person than I was 3 years ago. I grew up because of my break-up and failures. Aka, growing pains. I learned a lot about myself, learned how to heal, how to deal with pain, suffering, and mental health + gained different perspective about life/relationships, gained new friends and is (slightly) happier than I was 2-3 years ago.

Today, along with a non-profit I helped found, I organized a local clothing swap.

I got my company to start using an environmentally sustainable solvent called d-limonene rather than continuing to use petroleum based solvents which were much more toxic.

Couple days ago I did a bouldering climb on the first try, pretty proud of that

So on my college campus there was this nutty (by the standards of the time unfortunately might be considered normal now) guy who would preach. The students found it funny and many would gather around and ask him to tell them about the homosexuals or the communists because he would go off on these crazy stories and tirades which again the students found funny. One day the crowd grew mean and eventually one guy stole his sweater. I confronted him and had him give back the sweater and the mob mentality feeling subsided.

After being in a band for over 12 years, we finally recorded and released a song.

My first bunny passed away in January. He was the first pet I had as an adult who was strictly my responsibility and no one else’s. A rabbit’s lifespan is typically 8-12 years old. My gray boy lived until he was just a few weeks shy of 13 years old.

I’m proud I took such good care of him and proud he stuck around so long. I still miss my fella a lot, but I’ve used what he taught me to adopt and care for 2 rescue rabbits; one who was dropped at a shelter when she was 3 and another young guy who was found dumped in a parking lot. They are going to be just as spoiled as my grey boy was.

I started lifting weights at age 56. I’m not stopping until I’m dead.

I’m 6 years sober this month

I’ve built like 1/5 of the furniture in my house, which is pretty neat.

About 20 years ago, I stopped studying quantum mechanics because it frustrated me so much; I wanted to understand the “quantum regime.” After coming back to study more, I’ve made a lot of progress. I always hated that some said quantum mechanics was weird, or if you think you understand it, you don’t. You just need to know there’s a difference between seeking ontology of the subatomic, Vs the epistemic adequacy of quantum mechanics. While I’m nowhere near done studying physics overall, I’m still proud of my progress.

I’ve replaced everything Google can do with self-hosted services. No more YouTube, Docs, Nest, TV, Photos, etc.

Back when I was in a band, we played a show at the same venue I’ve seen some of my favorite bands play (on a Monday, we had basically no audience, but it was still cool). That show more than most is gonna stick with me, it was awesome.