“Mistakenly”

read as: “Illegals are bad except the ones that work for me.”

It would enable him to start fucking his daughter, or Laura Loomer.

Marriage has never stopped him before. I wouldn’t expect it would now.

TFW high priced business lawyers walk in and tell little worm eaten idiots what happens if they don’t walk back their stupid claims.

Using the word “irregardless” disqualifies you from any job, anyway. So shouldn’t really matter to you.

Does anyone actually think the 300 million is being spent on the ballroom? When all of his crimes shake out in the scope of history, we’ll learn that maybe 100 million went to the ballroom and at LEAST 200 million went into his own pockets. I guarantee it.

Remember the halcyon days when this would have automatically been assumed to be an Onion article? I remember…

Last relationship ended in 2016. Been single since then.

A few different reasons. The two most important being that being in a relationship requires going out and actually socializing with the public, which is usually something i tend to avoid. And secondly being that I don’t think I’m in any position emotionally, financially or psychologically to be of any use to a woman.

You aren’t helping anything

As opposed to what? Hoping shit just works out for the best if you just click your heels together and wish hard enough?

Grow up. This is the real world. You’re literally watching your country’s constitution be shit on and you can’t even be bothered to care as long as the corporate oligarchs keep you sedated with your shiny toys and your marvel movies.

I guarantee you that anyone who themselves came from a dictatorship or had parents who came from a dictatorship (like my parents) is shaking their fucking heads at how idiotic your pacifist “trust the polls” attitude is, as though Trump hasn’t already got his people running every single part of the election apparatus.

He’s literally already had the hats made…

JFC Americans take the phrase “burying their heads in the sand” to some astonishly crazy levels.

Not one damn single thing you mentioned matters when it’s quite literally TRUMP’S people in charge of every aspect of voting; from the voting machines themselves, to the oversight of the polling locations. He’s spent every second of the last year making sure of that.

I’m happy you’re optimistic. God knows we can use some of that in the world today. But damn, man…don’t be naive.

Surprise isn’t a thing when they’ve been gleefully announcing their actions in rigging it.

Poor deluded souls thinking that there are going to be midterms (or at least fair ones).

Trump is desperately trying to incite something to declare martial law. And if he doesn’t manage to do it, closer to the midterms he’ll just drop all pretense and do it anyway. That’s…what…he…fucking…does.

X-Com and X-Com 2 Long War mods. Essentially the games at their full potential.

That reminds me, It’s almost time for another playthrough i think.

Humiliation requires a sense of shame. Which does not exist in Trump’s world.

What’s her pet situation? It’s going to be hard to top Sioda and Brod. But it’s the most important question.

RECORDING: "We’re sorry. The American experiment is currently experiencing technical difficulties. Please leave a message after teh BEEP and we’ll get back to you as soon as someone is around who still knows how answering machines work.

BEEEEEP

“Uh…hi. yeah…guys. So hey. Yeah…Canada here. I couldn’t help but notice what’s been going on downstairs from us. and well, I’m sorry to have to say this, but you’re kind of freaking out your neighbours. So, if you could…you know…actually DO SOMETHING aboot it, that’d be great. Okay, bye bye.”

He’s installed. He’s got no intention of going anywhere. He doesn’t need their “votes” anymore. So he doesn’t give a shit.

What’s important to understand is that Depression isn’t “sadness”. It a dead feeling.

It’s not a dead feeling because of anything particularly bad happening. But it is a dead feeling that isn’t fixed by pills. But pills are, in some cases, a requirement for even being able to start trying to fix yourself.

Your brain has two positive reinforcement tools, Seratonin and Dopamine. Both of those work together. Dopamine affects how we respond to things, both good and bad. Seratonin affects mood, motivation, energy levels.

So when we say that “Depression isn’t sadness”, for example, we mean that we lack the dopamine to even think about things in terms of good or bad. They just…don’t…matter.

That leads to a kind of spiral. Things kind of fall apart when they just don’t matter to you. And as things fall apart, you start to feel like a failure and a piece of shit because things are spiraling, which just adds to the lack of dopamine and it keeps going down and down and down until you’re body is quite literally just not capable of producing those two chemicals naturally. They kind of forget how.

As cliche as it sounds, both Seratonin and Dopamine are boosted by “thinking good thoughts”. And I know that that sounds like bullshit, but it’s true. That’s why the fix (there is no cure) for depression is C.B.T (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy). It’s things like, keeping a negative thought challenge notebook, where whenever you have a negative thought, you write it down and you challenge it; actively asking yourself why you think that. If something good happens, but you always think “Oh this isn’t going to last”, you ask yourself things like “why do I think that?” and “What are the other possible outcomes”. Or writing down “three good things that happened to you that day”, for example. Cheesy things that your depressed and negative mind is likely to dismiss as “hippie bullshit”, but they work.

CBT is also about making habits. As things fall apart, as things don’t matter, dishes might not get done. Lawns may not get mowed. work might suffer because of lack of focus. And you wake up every morning and all of those things not being done, just make you feel like more of a piece of shit and drop the spiral further. And so you say “Okay…I’m never going to go to bed with dirty dishes in the sink. I’m going to walk my dog every morning. etc…” Small things. All of those things slowly but surely start to build the Seratonin back in your system, and the Dopamine starts regulating properly again. Thinking good thoughts, having a sense of pride and accomplishment, having fun…all of these things are what create your Seratonin and Dopamine.

But the kicker is, that when things have *not mattered" for such a long time. When you’ve lacked any of those things for such a long time, even starting to practice CBT sounds like utter bullshit. It’s cheesy at best. Worthless and pointless at worst. And so the drugs are there to act as sort of a tow truck that you call in to give your battery a boost so that you even have the motivation to start down the path of actually “battling”.

This Blog Post is what finally made me realize that I was indeed depressed, after denying it for many many years. I consider it a must read, not only for people to understand depression, but to understand me.

https://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2013/05/depression-part-two.html

Intro narration to Fallout 4.

War. War never changes.

How about a quick. “Hey. Just so you know, we live in sewers and eat gruel. Now make your choice.”