Growing up, I realized at a very young age that all the adults in my life were full of shit.
I still haven’t fully recovered. I tend to view the world as being full of lying assholes who don’t know what they’re talking about, and I have zero trust in any figures of authority, refuse to do anything anyone ever tells me to do simply because they told me to do it (even if I was going to do it anyway), and won’t ever take anyone’s word for it on anything. The combination makes me quite dysfunctional as an adult.
Unfortunately, people like the adults from my childhood are now running the government of arguably the most powerful nation of the world. Their toxicity is all too familiar to me, and it makes me sick to watch.
Like whenever tRump puts words in someone’s mouth that they didn’t say, to try to appeal to their authority and credibility while spewing his own inane drivel (such as “I was with the President of Finland, and he says they’re a forest nation, and that they don’t have wildfires because they rake the leaves on their forest floors”).
That’s exactly the sort of shit my dad would do. Sometimes I wonder how many people think I’m a stupid ass because all they’ve ever heard about me is from my dad telling people I said shit that I didn’t, as a way to avoid ridicule while fielding his own thoughts. I’m not sure if he ever learned that I’m not his property to be used however seems most convenient to him at a given moment…
Anyway, seeing all these stupid magabrains in power is really nauseating on a very personal level. I left home as soon as I turner 18 so that I wouldn’t have to tolerate ignorant conservatives acting like they’re superior (“this is MY roof!” yeah, yeah, that’s a real fucked up thing to say to a child who has no other choice but to live under it), and now a literal fascist is sitting in the Oval Office thinking it means he owns the entire country, the government, and its coffers.
Wow, reading your response felt like reading my exact experience growing up and now, except for me the abuser was my mother. I am sorry that you too went through a childhood that left you with so much mistrust, so much pain, and so much resistance and now feel yourself under the thumb again of an all too familiar oppressor (except on a much larger scale). I feel it too, internet stranger. You didn’t deserve that and still don’t, and that also goes for myself and anyone else.
Your comment gave words to feelings I’ve attempted to express but in a much more articulate manner, and I appreciate you for that.
The gaslighting and manipulation we experienced growing up, while horrible and unfair, are the very things that gave us the capacity to recognize the mass psychosis that is a direct result of the oppression and systematic violence that we and our fellow countrymen are experiencing. Under this type of abuse it is hard to understand what is real, what is true, and even what we see and hear. This is by design. We must always hold our truth, and trust it above all else.
I wish you the very best, wonderingwanderer. Thank you for sharing your story.
That’s crazy it’s almost like she has no plans to release them
Reminds me of hearing ‘soon’ or ‘we’ll see’ as a kid. Didn’t take long to realize these meant ‘no’.
Growing up, I realized at a very young age that all the adults in my life were full of shit.
I still haven’t fully recovered. I tend to view the world as being full of lying assholes who don’t know what they’re talking about, and I have zero trust in any figures of authority, refuse to do anything anyone ever tells me to do simply because they told me to do it (even if I was going to do it anyway), and won’t ever take anyone’s word for it on anything. The combination makes me quite dysfunctional as an adult.
Unfortunately, people like the adults from my childhood are now running the government of arguably the most powerful nation of the world. Their toxicity is all too familiar to me, and it makes me sick to watch.
Like whenever tRump puts words in someone’s mouth that they didn’t say, to try to appeal to their authority and credibility while spewing his own inane drivel (such as “I was with the President of Finland, and he says they’re a forest nation, and that they don’t have wildfires because they rake the leaves on their forest floors”).
That’s exactly the sort of shit my dad would do. Sometimes I wonder how many people think I’m a stupid ass because all they’ve ever heard about me is from my dad telling people I said shit that I didn’t, as a way to avoid ridicule while fielding his own thoughts. I’m not sure if he ever learned that I’m not his property to be used however seems most convenient to him at a given moment…
Anyway, seeing all these stupid magabrains in power is really nauseating on a very personal level. I left home as soon as I turner 18 so that I wouldn’t have to tolerate ignorant conservatives acting like they’re superior (“this is MY roof!” yeah, yeah, that’s a real fucked up thing to say to a child who has no other choice but to live under it), and now a literal fascist is sitting in the Oval Office thinking it means he owns the entire country, the government, and its coffers.
Wow, reading your response felt like reading my exact experience growing up and now, except for me the abuser was my mother. I am sorry that you too went through a childhood that left you with so much mistrust, so much pain, and so much resistance and now feel yourself under the thumb again of an all too familiar oppressor (except on a much larger scale). I feel it too, internet stranger. You didn’t deserve that and still don’t, and that also goes for myself and anyone else.
Your comment gave words to feelings I’ve attempted to express but in a much more articulate manner, and I appreciate you for that.
The gaslighting and manipulation we experienced growing up, while horrible and unfair, are the very things that gave us the capacity to recognize the mass psychosis that is a direct result of the oppression and systematic violence that we and our fellow countrymen are experiencing. Under this type of abuse it is hard to understand what is real, what is true, and even what we see and hear. This is by design. We must always hold our truth, and trust it above all else.
I wish you the very best, wonderingwanderer. Thank you for sharing your story.