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Cake day: June 16th, 2023

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  • I was in first year of college, but my birthday falls during winter break. So instead of being able to celebrate with all my awesome new college friends, I was stuck with like one good high school friend, two barely-friends (one was an ex, and their parents were friends with mine), and my gf.

    It was… ok. Pretty underwhelming. Pizza and cake, got to watch a movie I had been interested in, and played some multiplayer game.

    For some reason my gf decided she needed to hang all over me. Think she was trying to make the ex jealous, which is hilarious because there had been zero chemistry with the ex, I think we kissed once maybe. It did make the ex jealous, and my high school friend got to enjoy more attention from her than I ever got. Cuddling, holding hands, hugs, nothing further than that but it really highlights how little had been there with me and the ex. Still makes me laugh thinking about it.

    I remember a bunch of private jokes before and after between me and my gf about me finally being legal, because we’d been fucking like the horny teenagers we were for around a year and a half.

    Overall, not anywhere close to the big deal people tend to make it. I honestly didn’t remember any details until I sat and thought about it, and my memory was somewhat stirred by interacting with that high school friend again through work yesterday (ended up working for different sub-companies of the same org, doing similar work).


    Plenty of more memorable times in my life. Only one birthday is particularly memorable now in my mid 30s. My 21st is memorable less for the birthday itself and more for everything around it, but the birthday is still memorable.

    21st birthday

    Around 4 months before I turned 21, in the middle of burning out/dropping out from university and a deep depression, I moved 8 hours away from my parents to live with some friends of my gf near her (same gf from my 18th birthday).

    During that time I learned a hell of a lot about myself, and that my gf was stealing from everyone she called a friend. Shit hit the fan, a police investigation was opened that went nowhere, and I realized that she had been lying to me for the entire 5 years I had known her.

    My world and plans for the future came crashing down and I moved back in with my parents, right before my 21st birthday. I had planned on going no contact with them.

    Didn’t think I could trust my own judgement due to how much obvious shit I missed.

    My college friends pulled through amazingly. My best friend had an apartment on campus and hosted the party, and most of my friends brought friends of their own that I knew decently. Pretty much everyone that I had happy memories with from my time in university was there.

    Party with board and video games Friday afternoon into night, ending with our traditional “movie night” of two movies (at least one weird or awful) and a lot of drinking. Saturday morning just me and my best friend, still partially drunk bike ride into town for more booze. Day drinking, videogames, and binging our way through Red vs Blue. Sunday morning he tosses some cash at me and sends me off to the book store to get breakfast and a book he was raving about. Also to get me out of the apartment so he could have some time with his gf.

    It was the first book of Dresden Files, which is a favorite book series of mine to this day.


  • If only. Halfway through the movie something the toys are doing goes horrendously wrong and their owner dies. Camera angle doesn’t change for the rest of the runtime as everything else goes on, like the ambulance arriving, the parents grieving but eventually packing up the toys and moving on, most of it muffled from off screen outside the old kid’s room.



  • I’ve fooled around with Processing a lot, and have used it and later (iirc) a C++ or C# library many years ago to do “programmatic” edits to images and photos I had taken.

    Stuff like:

    • What if I treat the pixels in an image as one long strip and instead of placing them in left to right strips top to bottom, I lay them down in a spiral? Or in vertical strips despite the original image not being square?
    • What if I interleaved a copy of the image upside down every other row of pixels?
    • Let’s just apply random fucking math to the different color values!
    • Let’s select random rectangular sections of the image and paste them over the original at a random location, rinse and repeat 100 times.
    • What if I broke the image down into a grid of equally sized rectangles and shuffled their location?
    • What if I averaged the color of each rectangle and added that to the existing color value of those pixels?
    • etc etc.

    I’d come up with different ways to select portions of the image, different ways to place that back in, and different ways to combine the “pasted” section with original. I tossed together something like 30 different “formulas”, then would do like 10 runs of each one that had random elements, spit out the results into a folder of what ultimately was something like 300 “result” images, and then decide the five or so I liked the best.

    Add in the fact that I really don’t have any clue how color math works so I wasn’t basing my ideas off anything but whimsy, and some occasional pre and post processing with both paint.net plugins and audacity (you can sometimes open images as raw binary, avoid the file header, apply audio effects, and save it as raw binary to still have an image but it often just makes a corrupt file).

    Had a decent “glitch art” hobby going to keep me occupied in my free time.

    I desperately need to find that old code again. I miss tinkering with it.

    Unfortunately, the existing results are tied to a flikr account with connections to my real name, so I’d have to find the code and make more to share.












  • Flipping the switch gives you 1, 2, or 4 deaths. It will always end up looping those three numbers, so after an infinite amount of time it has to be one of those three options.

    All three of those options are less than 5, and they occur after an infinite amount of time instead of (relatively speaking) immediately.

    From both a pure numbers perspective and a theoretical minimizing or delaying harm perspective, pulling the lever is the right move.



  • You can’t seriously be saying that in the comments of a post linking to leaked internal documents showing that one of these companies is aware of the dangers they pose and damage they are doing. Did nazis falsify internal documents and this leak?

    Did you somehow miss the Cambridge Analytica scandal with Facebook, where they manipulated the emotional content of users’ feeds and gathered scientifically significant measurable responses in the emotions of the manipulated users?

    Have you missed where each of these companies has had many public job postings for positions requiring applicants have psychology degrees?


    People like to think of 4chan as the website that drove people to suicide, but every single one of the major social media sites has a fucking body count at this point, and almost every one is in the double digits.


    Beyond all that, lemmy’s userbase trends older. I saw the tail end of the satanic panic into the moral grandstanding about the dangers of violent video games. I’d wager most of the users here lived through it.

    I know firsthand what a moral panic looks like. They didn’t have the amount of research papers (that hold up to peer review) and leaked internal documents we can point at. They didn’t have body counts even remotely similar.


    Keep on fighting for opressed teens to have more ways to get away from opressive parents. To have access to factual information that their parents don’t want them to have. It’s a good cause with not many people fighting for it.

    That doesn’t mean though that anything you think challenges or opposes it is a nazi plot.


    Teens are resilient and have astounding amounts of time on their hands. They’ll find a way to communicate, ways to make their own underground social platforms if they need to. The cat’s out of the bag. It’s the fucking internet. Corpos, government boots, no one can truly stop the signal. They couldn’t back in the days of dial up BBS. Good fucking luck now that you can get a device orders of magnitude more powerful for $50.


    Don’t bother replying for my sake. I’m blocking you so I don’t get increasingly shitty towards you. Your mind’s made up on this, and so is mine. No point going back and forth if we’re just going to get more frustrated and exasperated at each other. Best of luck in your endeavours.



  • Teens and children, and the pushback you’re seeing is because a lot of people, even terminally online people, believe that limiting or preventing children (and teens) from accessing social media as they currently exist is part of making that happen.

    You have to slow the bleeding first. You can’t just ignore the broken leg and start physical therapy.

    Teens vary wildly in maturity and are likely to be unfortunately caught up in rules for children. There’s no easy cutoff age before 18 for when one can be trusted to be online without guard rails. I can speak from experience that teens will find a way whether its legal or not, so I’m not really super concerned about the ones who need access. They’ll find a way.

    And for every person like you that says they are still alive because of unrestricted internet, there’s another one who is dead because of it. 4chan, tumblr, reddit even (remember when they “totally figured out the boston bomber”?), and more direct cyberbullying all claim lives. There were 3 suicides in my highschool growing up, two determined to be cyberbullying caused and the third just rumored. I almost lost one of my younger cousins to cyberbullying as well.


  • Decade and a half ago I torrented all the time and didn’t get caught until I stupidly downloaded something from the top 100 torrents on pirate bay.

    Not sure how safe torrents are now.

    Never have had any issues with direct downloads and streaming. Just use your head, adblock, and virus scan your downloads (knowing that keygens or cracked exes may show as viruses).

    For safest option and free: Use an up to date web browser with a good adblocker (ublock origin is the current best), stick to direct downloads using a download manager to manage the 12+ parts, and virus scan everything that you download. Download from trusted sites from the megathread. Direct download is generally safe, unless you live in one of the few countries cracking down on fitgirl repacks specifically. Then that site is off limits for you.

    You can use torrents without a VPN, it’s just not safe. You could be caught and the penalty will vary based off of what you’re downloading, where you live, and who you use for an ISP.