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Cake day: July 2nd, 2023

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  • Emasculated goes a bit far but I kinda get it. It doesnt bother me if a sexual encounter starts with a toy, but “let me grab my vibrator so I can finish” is a night that ends with me feeling like I’m not good enough and probably going to bed feeling bad about myself. It’s something thats turned a few dates into one night stands for me when I told them how it made me feel and they were dismissive of my feelings






  • Avocado toast is one of the many things disingenuous conservative media has used to blame millennials for the economic situation we grew up in. “They wouldn’t be in such poor financial situation if they stopped paying $15 for avocado toast at brunch every day”

    That being said… avocado toast rocks and that is an opinion shared by all of my friends of my age lol. Personally I like mine with a fried egg and hot sauce




  • I grew up near a Thai Buddhist temple in the panhandle of Florida, and it was about the same. They did a charity cookout type thing every weekend, which was open to the public and they did a bunch of cultural and religious ceremonies right next to or right there in the little marketplace they set up for the cookout. It was a great way to kill a few hours on a sunday; $5 or $6 for a plate of pad thai and a skewer of thai bbq pork, see some cool ceremonies, sometimes end up talking with somebody from the temple for a bit. Absolutely blew my mind that a religious gathering could be so actively enjoyable after I grew up going to mass





  • Yeah, I was a defense contractor. I grew up periodically wondering if this was finally the deployment my dad wouldn’t come home from, and getting the chance to work in radar jamming to keep american aviators alive felt like a dream come true at first.

    I am afraid to try to change the world again. I already know that I have the capability to change things in the world, I spent plenty of time doing it. I also know that I developed my values and morality while being raised as a white supremacist, and that I am gullible enough to be misled into doing evil. I dont remotely trust my own judgement on what would make the world a better place, and I trust anybody telling me what I should do even less. I’ve already had to see and smell the consequences of trusting other people who justify violence to me.


  • Appreciate it, but I stopped looking a long time ago. I was raised in a military family to be an attack dog for fascists, and i realized that everybody i ever looked up to or trusted would rather support fascism than accept even a mote of discomfort in their personal lives. I dont trust another soul in the world and honestly im not sure i have the capacity to; ive only ever experienced cynical monsters of human beings vying for dominance, and I got extremely good at that game. If there even is anything worth living for in this faustian existence, the weight of my sins is such that I don’t deserve to experience it


  • A weird combination of electric, radar, computer, and hardware test. I used to do technique development and operational testing for radar jamming equipment on a strategic bomber for the airforce. I tried going back to school for a bit, but I learned that academia is run by pathetic cowards who can and will build weapons for fascists in exchange for funding. I came to the conclusion that the only thing I was changing was how likely I was to have to see the piles of corpses I was helping create. Now im just not looking anymore. I still get a daily deluge of emails from war profiteers looking for somebody willing to be a principal engineer in shithole towns like Huntsville or Abilene


  • That’s where I’m at. I graduated college at 22, got an engineering job right out of college that put me in the top 0.5% of income earners for my age, then did that for 5 years. At no point was I even close to being able to afford a down-payment on even a shitty condo where I lived. Now im unemployed, smoke weed all day, and im basically waiting to either participate in a revolution or run out of money and die. I am strictly unwilling to participate in capitalism anymore, I’ve got enough blood on my hands for a lifetime and nothing to show for it other than than the experience needed to realize how much of what I grew up believing was nothing more than cynical propaganda.



  • Im glad somebody is fighting trump, but good lord i do not want California to become the blueprint for America. Driving along the PCH from avocado farms in Oxnard to Malibu and seeing the sick fucking filth that is the California wealthy right next to the migrant workers they exploit is in my top 5 “most disturbing things ive ever experienced.” That is taking into account that I used to work on strategic bombers and I know in gruesome detail what a 2000 lb bomb does to a human body. Newsom is a bitter poison pill whose voting record shows that he basically agrees with Trump across the board, and his imitation of trump is barely even ironic. He’s always imitated trump in terms of policy.


  • “I don’t remember if thats classified or not”

    “Holy shit im arguing with toddlers why am I like this? There’s no way this is worth my time”

    “Am i actually accomplishing anything by pissing in this persons cornflakes about a topic that doesnt really matter just because im right?”

    Common reasons I self censor. Half the time im amused by and enjoy engaging with the faceless void of people and chatbots that make up the anonymous internet, half the time im just overwhelmingly exhausted with it